CAUTION: VENTING

Well, well, well, this week has been eventful.  One thing I dislike more than anything in the world is being let down.  One part of life's journey, I feel, is to enjoy all of the other wonderful people in the world, and hopefully find "the one."  Too bad life isn't like all of those gushy movies...Needless to say, boys will be boys.  I'm determined they will never, ever, change.  (Sorry in advance...this post is going to be a little more personal than the others...)

Everyone says, yeah, being let down, going through the dating process and all of that innocent crap happens to everyone.  Well, not wanting that to happen to me, I avoided relationships and anything even close to a relationship for the most part.  Sure, I would go on dates here and there, have a crush, blah blah blah.  But since moving to Arizona, I had a new purpose for myself.  To make myself happy, because no matter what you can always be there for yourself.  But, of course, that can't be forever...I let my guard down, opened my self up, and made myself vulnerable.  And now I sit here, confused as ever.  Wondering...did I do something? No...I don't think I did...Well, what if ....? But...? Not being able to sleep over this type of nonsense is just something that is not "me."  Guess it had to happen at some point, right?  Bad timing though....or good timing? I leave a week from Tuesday for my 3 month adventure in England.  I believe God works in mysterious ways, and I trust that whatever happens, happens for a reason.  As long as you fight your hardest for what you want, and put all of your energy into things and people that mean a lot to you, you will have no regret.  Even though I'm having a bit of an upsetting day, I'm not going to let that get the best of me...There is a beautiful world out there! So tonight, I'm having girl time.  Shopping with my friend Julie, just sounded like a must.  It also helps having some of the best friends a girl could ask for.  Derrik, Sabastian, Max, Gillian, Jami, only to name a few.  The fact that the majority of those close friends live in Flagstaff, and still call me when they know I need them, means the world.  I don't think they even know how much I value and appreciate their friendships.  Well...that was gushy...sorry 'bout it. ;) In case YOU are reading this:  Make me a priority, jerk.  I wont be putting up with this.


Sad part about this whole story...he probably thinks I'm some crazy. Just like every other "crazy" girl out there.  Just FYI, I'm the furthest thing from the "crazy" girl.


Now that I feel relieved that is off of my chest, only 12 more days until I leave for England!! Say what?!!!  Time is FLYING.  Before I know it, it's going to be December and I'll be back in good ol' Flagstaff. Ahhh!! It feels so surreal, yet SO exciting. :) It is nap time now; couldn't sleep last night :(